idle notions

After lots of deliberation, I have decided to stop writing on my blog for the moment. Sadly, I’m just finding I don’t have enough time to write anything. I feel stretched and torn in both good and not so nice ways. My life feels like it is on the brink of change. And until these changes happen, I just don’t feel that I can warrant the time to write here, when I have so many other things that are more important.

My little munchkin is way beyond her age. She is 16 months but acts closer to a 2 year old. We are having temper tantrums at least several on a daily basis. I’m struggling to get her into the car seat, pram, highchair. She screams and screams. Not much fun for either of us. We went to Bellingen on Friday and she managed to get herself out of the car seat while we were on the goat’s track that is the Pacific Highway. Hubby is quite pedantic about how she is strapped in and generally makes it quite tight – so how she managed to get out is anyone’s guess. Daytime sleeps have improved overall but still have rotten days where she sleeps for short periods and then is grumpy for the rest of the afternoon. And night sleeps have seen some improvements as well. Recently, we had one all through the night sleep – 6.30pm to 6.30am in her cot, not a peep to be heard!!! Woohoo!!! Sadly it hasn’t happened again – so I’m still having very broken sleep – generally not getting any more than about 3 hours straight. The little one may be sleeping more, but I’m having problems sleeping now – probably so long of disrupted sleep has ruined the good sleep patterns I had. So some nights it takes me a long time to get back to sleep myself although she may not wake for 4 or 5 hours in a row. At 16 months I would have thought sleeping through the night most nights would be the norm.

Also, I’m doing a psychology unit at Monash Uni through Open Univerisity. I’m really enjoying the academic stimulation, but have to work out if psychology is something I would like to do professionally. I’m definitely very interested in it – but not sure about it as a profession for me. Maybe I should revisit the novel I started writing. I already have close to 30,000 words and from the feedback I’ve had previously, an engrossing, page turning story. So maybe I should focus on that instead???

We’ve had a lot of inconvenient annoying things happen at our place – while we were away the hot water system tripped the mains electricity. We lost the contents of fridge and freezer. All those condiments etc add up to a fair bit. We’ve had water leaking into the walk in robe of the main bedroom. Still not fixed. So discovered mould on a lot of our clothes. The dishwasher has also stopped working and will be another week before it is fixed. So as you can see, lots of annoying little things. But all things which need following up with the landlords/ real estate agent.
I know lots of people have lots going on, but I’m feeling a bit vulnerable and sensitive at the moment. Things are taking on bigger than Ben Hur proportions, yet really some aren’t major or significant, others are. Such is life I guess. So it’s time to take a break – which I guess I had been kind of doing anyway. It’s not good bye, just sayonara for now.

I’ll leave the blog up at the moment, but may decide to make it private at some point in the future. So dear readers, I leave you for a while…

Good wishes to you all.
Kerri-Ann